Clive Anniversary @ Zouk.

Clive celebrated it's 2nd Anniversary party at Zouk KL last night! Thanks to bro, we had 8 VIP passes and thank gawd Jamie and me got in because you know la....teehee. It was a party ala Beach Party Style but nothing like water or some sort like that but there's only floats and beach balls around LOL. And hawt cover girls and models and Wii and Andrea Fonseka who only came for less than 10 minutes.

Pretty Jamie, Carine and yours truly. =)

Free flow of Guinness yo!

L-R: Victor, Jamie, mua, Carine, Gilbert, Leonard and Kar Wei.

Thank you for the great night! =)

Andrea Fonseka and now her husband, Paul Dewar.

Congratulations!

*Hats down to Paul Dewar for successfully proposing to Andrea for the third time and the best one!*

PS: Munching on my all time favourite; Honey-comb biscuits. YUMS!

Love,

Sue.

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You stole my heart

And crumbled it like the egg tart.

Woke up every morning with the taste of your tongue.

Something random to ponder about.

#1. Never ever trust anyone whole heartedly except yourself.

#2. Never ever try putting bigger hopes as it will lead to bigger disappointments.

#3. Always trust your instincts or inner voice.

#4. Never miss a chance to express what you feel before that chance is taken away from you in a blink of an eye.

#5. Know that love has nothing to do with looks, but everything to do with time, interest and trust.

#6. Life is a win-win situation. Either things will turn out the way it should be, or you learn something.

#7. Smile, because there's definitely someone out there who will fall for it.

#8. Never give up, tho the road is hard to travel.

#9. If a person leaves you, it's definitely his/her loss.

#10. Time heals.

#11. If you never try, you'll never know.

#12. There's always something called karma. What goes around comes around.

#13. Life is fabulous. Enjoy it to the fullest.

#14. Always take the path less traveled by. You'll never know what good might comes out of it.

#15. The world doesn't stop for your grief.

#16. It takes a long time to build trust but only seconds to destroy it. Very true.

#17. You cannot make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to the person to realize your worth.

Truth to be told, i never learn from my mistakes unless it really really really hits me hard like a gazillion times.

Love,

Sue.

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Words digested.

Thank you sayang!

;)

Just stand there and see me burn, cause' i like the way it hurts. Just stand there and see me cry, cause' i love the way you lie.

"Dearie, i know it's very hard on you lately but no matter what, please be strong. God definitely has his reasons behind His actions. Brave through it all with strength. We will all be here supporting you in any ways that we can. You know you have our backs dearie. Be strong.

God bless daddy's soul."

*hugs you tight*

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It's been a tough month and i'm definitely working behind schedule. Lotsa things happened lately and they happened in a glance that i couldn't even appreciate everything that i had. I wish i could slow down the time a lil so that i could balance my time between work and play wisely.

But time is a cruel thief. Yet, time also proofs everything.

Sidenotes;

You, i wouldn't deny the fact that i'm missing you so much now that you're no longer mine. I wish you would come around and hold my hands and tell me that everything's gonna be fine like how you used to do. There's so many things i wish i could tell you, yet it's not appropriate. I'd been so lost lately, but i know i have to get back on track. I will learn to live without you, and i hope you stay happy as well...

*KJH! Take care of him ar! =)

**Boyfriends come and go, but true friends remain. =)

Love,

Sue.

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I never knew i would love you this much.

The last thing you wanna do in a relationship is to lie.

Woke up after 3 hours of sleep and not having any sleep at all the night before. The chest is definitely doing its thing again. It's 0700 now and i'm gonna skip basic photography for the 5th time. Well i guess most of you have known that i'd just lost my one month old relationship. Yes, one month wtf. But i wouldn't deny the fact that even we lasted for only a month, the memories were definitely unforgettable.

Well, let's just say that i was only the rebound.

I thought after suffering for more than a year trying to put myself back together and let go my past and feel loved again. But all i get is just another heartbreak. Now i have to go through another process of picking-up-the-pieces again with lotsa whippings and cryings and moaning and whining like a bitch which no one definitely wants to go through. Been there, did that and its no easy-peasy. It needs a whole lot of courage to put down your memories with someone you dearly loved. And i know what you're going through now since you still miss her a lot. And i was stupid to think that i'm good enough to own the most important place in your heart. Looks like being faithful doesn't serve its purpose afterall.

Really, i should've seen this coming. I knew i'm gonna get this back sooner or later but friends kept encouraging me to be optimistic. I tried to be one, i learnt to be one and like they said, just keep on loving him and soon he'll realize. I'd promised myself to change, i'd been planning so much in my head for the both of us, i'd been trying my very best to save this relationship but instead, i jeopardized our relationship. I never knew asking questions were wrong, i never knew wanting you to inform me about things were wrong, i never knew your one cent and five seconds were so precious, i never knew i was only your burden, i never knew loving you was wrong. All i needed was some time to prove myself to you because i believe that what's worth the price is always worth the fight.

You always tell me not to simply think, yet there's so many misunderstandings. Now that you've decided to leave, i don't even have my say.

I stay strong for your words. And each time you held my hands i feel save and secure. You've promised to walk this journey with me, you took my hand but why did you leave me half way through? We were so close to fixing things, we were so close to making things work, but why did you gave up on us?

Probably i just don't have that kind of luck to be in your arms, to be cared for by you, to be loved by you. But i would consider myself lucky because i'd found you and those days meant so much to me even if it wasn't enough. Really, how much does this relationship meant to you when you meant the whole world to me?

Talking about karma.

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"I will learn to let you go. Because i love you."

P/s: Thank you to all the friends who had seen us through. Thank you for being a part of us and i truly appreciate all of the never ending advices and support. My gratitude goes out to you people; Dearie Panda, Darling Angeline, Jian Hong, Kien Yap and Suren.

Last but not least, Geek Lun, it's not your fault, so never blame yourself. You're just another confuse kid like how i used to be. Trust me, i'd been there, and you'll heal sooner or later. Just give yourself some time and you'll do just fine. I thank you for everything. And i've never ever blame you coz' i was in the wrong.

Take care. Iloveyou.

*Appreciate everything while you can, before its too late.

**The stuff that i got from my hometown for you also i can't give it to you. =(

Love,

Sue.

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If today is our last day and tomorrow is too late,

Could you say goodbye to yesterday?

You're not sorry.

Yet, i'm still such a failure.

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No matter right or wrong,

The blames are on me.

My doubts fade away when i'm kissing you.

"Sparks fly, it's like electricity

I might die when i forget how to breathe

You get closer and there's no where in this world i would rather be

Time stops like everything around me

It's frozen and nothing matters but these

Few moments when you open my mind to things

I've never seen

Cause' when i'm kissing you

My senses come alive

Almost like the puzzle piece

I've been trying to find

Falls right into place you're all that it takes

My doubts fade away when i'm kissing you

When i'm kissing you

It all starts making sense

And all the questions i've been asking in my head

Like are you the one i should really trust

Crystal clear it becomes

When i'm kissing you

Past love they never got really far

Walls of made sure i've got in my heart

And i promised i wouldn't do this till

I knew it was right for me

But no one

No guy that i met before

Could make me feel so right and secure

And have you noticed

I lose my focus and the world around me disappears

I've never felt nothing like this

You're making me open up

No point in even trying to fight this

It kinda feels like it's love

Cause' when i'm kissing you

My senses come alive

Almost like the puzzle piece

I've been trying to find

Falls right into place you're all that it takes

My doubts fade away when i'm kissing you."

Currently addicted to this song! And fyi, Miranda Cosgrove is only 17 yo!

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No one said life is fair. No one said life is easy.

Life definitely has its twists and turns, ups and downs but it's completely up to us to choose. Life is a paradox between the endurance of the struggle and the fragility of fate.

Sometimes we just gotta close one eye and act as if nothing happen.

Sometimes we just gotta buried all of the emotions inside rather than bursting them out.

Sometimes its better to not know anything at all.

Somethings are better left unsaid...

*On a sidenote;

I'm not giving up just yet. Let's start from scratch aight?

**Fucking broke.

Love,

Sue.

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This is just too good to be true.

"If only i could find the right words to touch you deep inside."

Goodnight baby.

ILY.